Light of the World=My Identity

I wrote Christianity in forms.
I told people I'm a Christian when asked.
I hang a key chain with a Bible verse on my Bible case.
I sometimes wear t-shirts with Bible verse or a cross printed on it.
I served in youth fellowship.
I served in the church as usher.
I named my blog "Light of the World" which is based on the book of Matthew.
I attended camps and talks to enrich my walk with God.
I sometimes read the Bible and books related to Christianity.
I listened to Christian songs and sermons.
I pray and others prayed for me too.
I encouraged my friends with Bible verses.
I'm in a Christian environment.
BUT.....
Most of the time, my life is no different from non-Christian, which contrast the name of my blog.
Most of the time, I'm like a wolf putting on a lamb suit and taking it off when not in church.
Most of the time, I'm a hypocrite.
Most of the time, I lost my patience and self-control.
Most of the time, I failed God.
I took God for granted.
I didn't live my life in such a way that others will see God in me.
I embarrassed His name.
I failed to live up to His expectation.
I'm supposed to be an example to others, but I didn't.
God still loves me despite my weaknesses and failures.

"God, forgive me for all the sins I've committed. Forgive me for my foolishness and laziness of not spending quiet time with You. Thank you for being so patient with me and for loving me even though I have let You down most of the time. Father, I pray that You will use me as Your instrument. Mould me, Lord, into Your likeness. Make me the salt and the light of this world so that others may see You through me and glorify Your holy name! I don't deserve anything from You but I pray that You 'll have mercy on me. Take me, use me and mould me! I pray that You'll be the potter and I, the clay. In Jesus name, Amen!"